Tattoos and snow :) ... Doesn't get any better then that.

We just got our first snow of the season in the valley! Soooo stoked. It wasn't much but it sure is nice to wake up to it being white outside. The snow makes everything so much prettier. Not to mention I had some really good company!

I also got a new tattoo! My buddy Danny did it for me and killed it. We have to do a few sessions because it is so big!  I LOVE IT!

Life is so good lately :) I am stoked.

Home sweet home

I LOVE BEING BACK IN WASHINGTON!!

New hairs

My gf did my hairs! It has been SOOOOO long :) . I am pretty excited about it! What do you think?

A new day

Hooray for a new day! I have been feeling so icky and I am glad to say that today is a new day and I feel good. I am thankful, I am happy, I am healthy, and so so alive. Sometimes you just need to learn to ride the wave. Life as of lately has been good. BORING but good. I started taking banjo lessons and also bought a harmonica. Music lately has been a good healing technique. It makes me so happy :). I also have been riding my bike a lot and just getting good exercise. Getting outside makes me the happiest person. Things are def looking up and will just keep getting better as long as I keep a positive attitude. STOKED.

I made a video!

Thailand 2012 <3

 I can't wait to go back! 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ftMVt9QWH1w

-ENJOY-

November 1st

It has been three years since my brother has been gone. Being home sure brings back a lot of memories. I can say I am learning to live with out him and it is so so hard. I guess you could say being away from home made it a lot easier. I healed in my own way. Now that I am home it feels like I have to start all over again. Fuck.


I miss him so much....

This one is for you brother bear <3 

My girl Rachel

This is Rachel. I can't even explain how much I care for this girl. I have known her for a while but this summer we started to really get to know each other. It was almost like we just randomly made plans one day and then it never stopped. The plans just got more epic every time we would hang out. She has helped me so much through this difficult time and I just want to say thank you. I know she doesn't know I have a blog but still. This girl was there to have fun, smile, laugh, cry, and just be herself no matter what. Stoked to have made a good friend this summer. We have so much fun together and I know we will be everlasting pals. Love you Rachel!

New job

Wowzas. Life has been so crazy lately. I quit my job at the coffee stand because it was horrible. There was about a week that I was not working and I figured I would move to Colorado or back to Park City for the winter. That was until I thought that I would turn in this one application and see if it works out. Well it did :) !! I got the job on the spot as a server/bartender. How rad is that :)? My goal is to stay home for a while. I miss it. I don't want to run away. I really just need to face everything and feel all of these emotions and just ride the wave. Cheers to staying in Washington. This is going to be one bumpy road. If I can get through this with out leaving I am going to be so proud of myself. Bring it on.

Colorado

I got to go visit my besty in Colorado! It was amazingggggg! I love it there! I seriously just needed a break and my girl had me come visit for a week. SO SO THANKFUL. I needed a vacation so badly with everything going on. This time I didn't bring electronics on purpose. I felt so free.

Riding bikes, going on walks, exploring, dancing, drinking, meeting new people, and so much more. The experience was amazing. I love my girl Nicol so so much and the memories will forever be in my heart. I love that we can travel and always make sure to visit each other no matter where we are in the world. FOREVER GRATEFUL.  <3

Time to think

Today I went out off Chuckanut and did some climbing. My mind is going crazy. I feel SO shitty. Sometime it is so nice to get some fresh air and just think. Take time for yourself. JUST BREATH. 

Things will be ok... Time is key...

Sad :*(

IT'S OVER.

Into the woods

These passed few days I have been showing my roommate Mike some sweet spots in our town. The area has so much offer and sometimes we take it for granted.

Wednesday I took him to Galbraith and it was such a good time. The weather was a happy medium and it was nice to just breathe some fresh air. The view point is a good one and all of the bike trails are so fun to wander around. We saw so many flowers on the sides of the trails and all of the leaves on the trees were glowing. I loved it. If there is any place to just be carefree it is the beach or in the woods. There is something about it I tell ya. There is no place like home :) .

Thursday we headed out to Chuckanut to hike Oyster Dome. Definitely one of my most favorite drives. I wish I had a motorcycle though, then it would be that much better. It didn't take us to long to hike to the top and once we got there it was nothing but pure bliss. The view is amazing. Mike was so stoked and it made me feel so happy to get to share such a beautiful spot. On our way back we hiked over to Blanchard to watch some hang gliders and lay in the sun for a while. I could have passed out but we ended up getting back on our feet and headed straight to the trail. We pretty much ran back down, it was hilarious actually. This hike was so needed.

Shortly after we got back to the car we went down to the Taylor Shellfish Farm and got some big oysters so we could bbq when we got back home. SOOOOO YUMMY. Once we got back into town we feasted and chilled outside in our big lawn. Life is good. I am so thankful to have a friend that can be spontaneous and just go with the flow. Thank you dude. 

Feeling lost

Dang, I must say as of lately things have been kind of a roller coaster. I live my life day by day but I am not sure where life is really taking me at the moment. Trying not to get lost in my thoughts. I need to follow my heart. Sometimes it is hard to though...

One crazy weekend

I am so tuckered out...This weekend was a shit show but I definitely had a lot of fun seeing my old friends. I am too lazy to type it all - Long story short I got to see a lot of sweet people this weekend, partied in my home town, went camping, went to Baker for the Slush Cup event, oh anddddd my Iphone got destroyed. I doooo have a few photos :) xo

Sail

I just want to say that lately I have been trying so hard to just get out there and do fun things. The weather has been so great and it is finally feeling like summer is just around the corner. This weekend I got invited to go sailing with my pal Ken. I can't even tell you how excited I was. The next day we got our groceries and all of the things we needed and took off. We were supposed to sail over to Cypress but ended up going to Lummi Island. I was still so happy :) . That feeling of being on a boat in the middle of the water is amazing. I seriously could not stop smiling. I so wish I could get a sailboat and learn everything. It was so rad to watch Ken. It was like second nature to him. 

Once we got to the Island we cracked some beers and hiked around for about three hours. It was so much fun. I was in my element. Now all though I have been to Lummi Island by ferry, I have never got to sail there, or even see the other side of it - So this was amazing. There wasn't a house in site, there was only one other sailboat there, and it was soooo peaceful. No one around other than the birds and the trees. I dig it. We ended up finding some really sweet spots. Exploring makes me so happy.

Shortly after we hiked around we started collecting wood for a fire and food prepping for tin foil dinners. We drank and had good convo then paddled back for the boat and crashed out. I dreamt soooo crazy. I haven't slept on a sail boat in years. It was SOOOO peaceful. What a good time. The best time. 

The next day we ended up making breakfast on the boat and then headed to Dot Island (most people call it that). We stayed barefoot and ran around this island to the most amazing beach spot! All that was missing is our friends. It was still such a wonderful time though. We made it back by sunset (which was like 9:15pm), packed up, and called it a night. I had my scooter to ride home and I seriously felt like such a bad ass with my huge pack with all my camping stuff hahaha...I just wish I was riding a freaking motorcycle home...Anyways my mind is wandering :) ...This weekend was epic. Thanks Ken!

Chelan

Week number two for doing really rad stuff! Headed out to Chelan for Memorial Day weekend with some old pals from Sedro. There was about ten of us just camping out and doing sweet stuff in town. I had suchhh a great time. Things definitely got crazy here and there but minus that it was amazing. There is something about being in the woods I tell you :) ... I freaking love it. I also just want to shout out to all that have fought for our counrty. THANK YOU. HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY!! XO

Winthrop

Soooo I ended up going camping with Mike and his family for the first time. It was a good. What I enjoyed most was the fishing! Caught some hugggge trout. I def. enjoy camping and Winthrop is gorgeous but this trip kind of made me realize some things... But that is me just thinking too much. Or is it? At one part of this trip my boyfriend's Dad and his family members that were sitting around a fire started singing and chanting what they would call a Native American songs as I walked up to them. They thought it was funny and laughed like it was nothing. My boyfriend was over in the bathroom so he had no idea that happened. When I walked up to them I just looked at them and turned around and went back to my camp site. Why are people like that? Ignorance. It can ruin people. All I can say is that my love is stronger than anyone's hate. All in all it was good trip :) I appreciate the family for letting me join them and their white privileged selves.

Happy Birthday Anthony Jefferson!!

I freaking miss you bro :(

Portland is good :)

I seriously ALWAYSSSSS have the best time when I go to Portland. Mike and I took a trip to go visit our pals Alycia and Owen. The trip was quick but it was soooo good. Alycia is preggers so Mike got some really rad pictures of her and her belly. This trip was rad and the sun was shining the whole time. STOKED.