It is not the destination, it is the journey along the way. . .
Lately I have been thinking a lot about life. Being in Alaska has opened my eyes so much. It has made me grow up and learn to live with out someone always taking care of me. My whole life I have had my mother and my bro to be there and no matter what the situation was I could count on them. Till this day it is like that with my mother, but being so far away I can't really rely on her. It is now up to me to really do what I want to do. It is up to me to put myself in situations that are good for myself..or bad.. A few weeks ago I left my house and went on a little hike and camped out by myself. It felt sooooo good. Just thinking about a lot of things. My brother, my life, my fam, where I am at in life, what I need to do, what do I want to do, soooo many thoughts.
What I am starting to realize is that YOU are all that you have got outside of everything and everyone else. You need to look to the sky and trees to just feel it all out and find what you are here for. Whether it is you and that higher being, you and yourself, it is going to be only you left. You make friends and have family of course...Family is forever. Make sure to get to know people and the ones you love, don't take them for granted. Make due with what you have, even if you don't feel like you have much. I truly have been looking at life in a whole new perspective ever since my brother passed away. You can run from so much but no matter what it will always be there.
Now I am here. Skagway, Alaska. I wanted to come to Alaska to take a break, breathe, and just live my life the way I want to. Kind of take a moment and just get a way for a little bit. Now my time here is almost up so I have been trying to focus on what I am here for...and that is nature. It makes me feel so alive. I can't explain how nature makes me feel. Seeing these mountains, smelling this crisp cold air, hiking, exploring, determined to find what makes your heart beat harder. It is here. I love Alaska..I love how it is making me feel and I love just thinking. It has made me see how other people live life, how there are so many god damn people in this world but yet YOU are truly the one that can only make yourself happy. If you are not happy with yourself you better fix whatever is making you unhappy or you will go down a unhappy man. I have been working so much on what makes me happy, getting to know myself, and cherishing all of every moment. I can not wait for my next adventure. It's like now that I have started..I don't think I want to stop. Exploring and pondering about life is amazing. I can truly say, I have this emptiness inside bc of my bro, but I am sooooo happy about what I am becoming and what I am going to do. It has been a good year so far. I am truly blessed with all that has come to me. I am learning so much about life, living life, and no matter what I do, I know I will be ok.
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