Park City

So here I am! I have not blogged in a while because I have no internet and have been super busy! But what I can say is that I have been having a really rough time here. I am enjoying it, don't get me wrong, it is just going to take sometime to adapt. 

When I first got here I camped out from 5AM to about 10AM at Rockport National Park and then went to meet my new boss at "my new house" around 1PM. Well the house ended up being an old fire station! No pole though haha..Let me tell you, I was a little scared. He walked me through it and it was FILTHY! He kinda just pointed to things and named them off as walked through the area. But then he took me upstairs and that was where we actually were going to stay. It wasn't too shabby, there was a decent sized kitchen, a living room, and there is about 8 rooms. Some people had there own room and some had to share. I met a few of the people living there and they seemed pretty nice, just a LOT older. Shortly after that I signed some paper work, took a drug test over at a clinic, and then settled in. I was very excited because he gave me the "biggest room" BUT a little disappointed because there was three beds. So that means instead of one roommate it will be two. Another sweet thing though, was that we have a sweet rooftop! It is huge! So taking pictures, having drinks, playing banjo, and just hanging out will be awesome up there! Here are a few pictures of my room and also the rooftop :)

A few days later Mike and I headed to Zion National Park! It was amazing! I had the greatest time exploring, camping, taking pictures, and basically getting away to see a new place. Here are some pictures :)

( For some of these photos* photo credit "Dyrland Productions")

On our way back from Zion we experienced the first snow! It went from being super sunny and nice out to a snow storm! It was nuts. Check it out.

Then once I got back to Park City it was light snow but the mountain looked like this

Once we got home we chilled out and met a lot of the other roommates. Once I met them I was having a really rough time because everyone but a few, is old. There are two guys that are pretty cool though (Mike and Will) 

There are lots more guys then girls, which normally I don't care but these guys are at least in their 50's. Ugh.. So not only that I had heard that one of my new roommates was going to be about 60 something years old. I was freaking out. I normally would not care but I actually met her and lets just say she didn't have the best hygiene. So it all kind of added more stress to my days. 

Anyways, it was the weekend before we started work on the tenth and I went out to the bars with Mike, Mike, and Will. We went to a snowboarding premiere, danced all night, bar hopped, and on our walk home there was a four story house party! It was a lot of fun :) .The next day we went and hiked to some old mines. I guess Park City was a mining town back in the day. Super cool. Then later we went ice skating. Shortly after that I went home and passed out. The next day we took the gondola up the mountain and hiked around on Park City Mountain Resort. It was all in all a good weekend. Here are some pics.

Now all though I was having fun... I was REALLLLY struggling inside. Let me tell you what I had going on:

1. I missed Alaska, fresh air, the mountains, my close pals that I made, and nature.

2. I missed the ocean. I have never moved to a place with out the ocean.

3. I missed my mom and the rest of my friends and family.

4. I miss my brother.. November 1st it will be one year since he has been gone. And I know that I have been holding a lot in and need to talk about it to someone.

5. A new place, new environment, new people.

6. Whenever I go hiking I am looking at the same things :( .

7. If you want to see a different view you have to drive pretty far away.

8. Alcohol laws in the state of Utah are ridiculous!

9. Park City is a veerrry ritzy town and so far the vibe I am getting from the area is awkward. People kind of look down on you. I am sure it will change once the snow gets here.

10. Mike and I are trying to get used to being around each other again. We have been so independent with out each other over the summer.

11. All of my roommates are old.

12. My new roomy might be a creepy old woman. And my boss would not return my phone calls or emails.

THE LIST COULD GO ON

I was holding all of these feelings in and the list just kept getting bigger and bigger.

And finally... I  broke down.

Boy did it feel good to cry. I called my mom and vented. Told her EVERYTHING! And she listened. It felt so good to just let it all out. She helped me balance everything out and make me look at what was really going on. What that was is that it is a really difficult month for me. It is almost November 1st and that will be one year since he has been gone. I have so much built up emotions about it all. Then coming to a new place and all of that list up there pretty much made it that much worse. One thing about my mom is that she is a big believer in God. She told me I need to pray and look at a book she had gave me about grieving. I was having such a rough time deep down even thinking about praying to be honest with you. I had felt like if I were to do that nothing would happen. Finally I got off the phone with her and cried hard..Even harder then I was on the phone with her. So much going on! I was ready to pack my bags and go. I then grabbed two pictures of my brother , stared at them, then closed my eyes, and prayed. I didn't even know what to say. But what came out was "Please help me, I don't know what to do and I need help. I miss my brother so much and I need help." Shortly after I grabbed the grieving book and read the first two pages. The second page actually had it's own prayer to read to yourself. It fit exactly to how I was feeling and once I read it, my tears started to stop. Eventually I fell asleep.

A few days later I started work (Oct 10th) and met my trainer and did lots of paper work. Basically book work, kinda boring. Everyday in class I would just think about home in Washington. Boy did I really want to move back home... One day I asked Mike if I put gas in his tank can we go on a drive. He of course being so sweet, was down :) So we headed over to the Wasatch National Forest. Here are some pics :)

Then on the 13th at lunch I get a call from Park City T.V. saying that I had won a pair of ski's from a Warren Media Contest! Woot woot* I was pretty excited about it. Then after work my boss walked over to me and asked if we could talk. He talked to me about my new roommate and how it wont be the 60 year old woman, he said he would NEVER do that to me. What a great day eh? It was kind of a sign I felt like. New ski's, maybe it was Park City's way of telling me to stay ;) . As well as the roommate issue. But really I felt like praying does help. Someone def heard me up there and gave me a pick me up. 

This weekend has been good. We went to Salt Lake and ran around. Also checked out the Mormon Temple and its surroundings. It is beautiful but I have to say that the Mormon culture is pretty different. But whatever floats their boats :) . I will post pictures another day. We also went out last night to a bar for ladies night. It was a lot of fun dancing :) ! I slept up on the rooftop last night with my pad and sleeping bag. It was beautiful out. I love the stars here :) It is the 16th of Oct today and I feel blessed. Yes I am still struggling but I know that everything will be ok. I am going to troop this out and if things don't work out, at least I know I tried. But as for now, I am ok.

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